So, it's been a month and a half! No daily ramblings here lately! No excuses, just wasn't feeling it!
But I'm here to ramble -for today at least! Everything is moving right along - we're almost 6 months into this deployment and that my friends is a HUGE victory! YAY, yay, yay!!! Work is busy, which is great! I need busy right now!! Sometimes when I schedule an appointment after my normal work hours to accommodate a client's family I think how nice it is that I can do this now, but once husband is home that will likely change -I'll have a reason to rush home!
So I'm going to say it: Deployment is just weird. I remember in high school thinking about deployment and feeling like "that has got to be the worst thing ever!" Even then my heart just ached at the idea in that uncontrollable I can not even imagine, kinda way! Little did I know that I would marry into the military and not have to think to imagine what it would be like!
I have some moments here and there (mercifully few and far between lately!) where I'm pretty emotional about it, but you just... keep going! It's kind of a numb, blah feeling most of the time. It's certainly not great, but I'm thankful that time passes and I'm finding things to keep me busy! Right now the only time I get super bummed about it is when I think about our first year of marriage and how the days we've been apart are far greater in number than those spent together. Sigh. ...Moving on!
Mother-in-law recently bought husband a magic jack and sent it to him so he has telephone access now! This was great at first, but lately there has been an insane delay! Like 30 seconds, for real! It's almost comical because you'll have to remember what the response was in answer to when you get it 3 conversations later! Gotta laugh or you'd scream!!! Hopefully this is a product of weather interfering with internet signal and not the new norm!
Today a coworker told me that her cousin is going to be deploying soon. She just looked at me with these sad, anxious, unknowing eyes as if she wanted me to have a fix for her! What could I really say? ..You just find a way to get through it!
I think friends probably have a hard time knowing what to say to me. Maybe? It's like with someone who is grieving - there are no "right things" to say, but the effort and caring words help. A family friend wisely told my mom that the hardest part after losing a loved one is after the first few months have passed, when people forget and refocus on their own lives and their stuff. According to her, it is then when she knew she would need the most support! This really isn't a blatant call out, but more something to ponder as I think it's an important concept when dealing with folks going through a rough time!
As for me, just moving along, thankful for each day that passes and being one day closer to husband coming home!
Peace.
